Deed is Destiny

You are what your deep driving desire is; As your deep driving desire is, so is your will; As your will is so is your deed; As your deed is so is your destiny.


The dance changes you. It's hard to say how, but it does. Even now I can't really describe how changed I feel, but I really feel different.

It's a reawakening that you can't really describe and it has everything to do with purpose. You find yourself feeling, in contact with that soft yet deep driving desire that flows even within you. Even now I feel the energy moving through me. It seeks freedom and expression through me. It challenges me to ask myself, Who Am I, in this moment, and who am I going to be in the next. It asks me to see the effects of my intention and my clarity. It teaches to me that in any moment, I can be a difference in this world.

Everyday I seek the dance. Some days more strongly than others. I know there is an energy there, a field which seeks and waits for me to meet it, to catch it, and to work with it. Some days I am prepared. Other days I am not. Self doubt, fatigue, fear of failure, in general very low emotional tone is the barrier. Peace in existence must be cultivated for the energy to descend, to run through. Otherwise the ignorant chaotic movements of the subconscious kick about and disperse the higher movements before they can even begin to manifest.

That's certainly been the case of late. 12 hour days. The fatigue that lies at the end of it. Day after day after day. The lack of emotional balance or space to reflect and find the peace of the heart. But really what it is - being stuck in the machinery of the world and the disconnection from one's true, deep, driving inner desire - what some have called the Daemon... Disconnected from one's true inner purpose and desire, life becomes a very rough and rocky road... a truly confusing battle for survival and Destiny lost.

It gets hard. But even so, I can still feel the Dance. It keeps me alive.